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She spoke and wept with that gentleness which makes such words and tears omnipotent over a loving - hearted man . Lydgate drew his chair near to hers and pressed her delicate head against his cheek with his powerful tender hand . He only caressed her ; he did not say anything ; for what was there to say ? He could not promise to shield her from the dreaded wretchedness , for he could see no sure means of doing so . When he left her to go out again , he told himself that it was ten times harder for her than for him : he had a life away from home , and constant appeals to his activity on behalf of others . He wished to excuse everything in her if he could — but it was inevitable that in that excusing mood he should think of her as if she were an animal of another and feebler species . Nevertheless she had mastered him . CHAPTER LXVI . ’ Tis one thing to be tempted , Escalus , Another thing to fall . — Measure for Measure . Lydgate certainly had good reason to reflect on the service his practice did him in counteracting his personal cares . He had no longer free energy enough for spontaneous research and speculative thinking , but by the bedside of patients , the direct external calls on his judgment and sympathies brought the added impulse needed to draw him out of himself . It was not simply that beneficent harness of routine which enables silly men to live respectably and unhappy men to live calmly — it was a perpetual claim on the immediate fresh application of thought , and on the consideration of another’s need and trial . Many of us looking back through life would say that the kindest man we have ever known has been a medical man , or perhaps that surgeon whose fine tact , directed by deeply informed perception , has come to us in our need with a more sublime beneficence than that of miracle - workers . Some of that twice - blessed mercy was always with Lydgate in his work at the Hospital or in private houses , serving better than any opiate to quiet and sustain him under his anxieties and his sense of mental degeneracy . Mr . Farebrother’s suspicion as to the opiate was true , however . Under the first galling pressure of foreseen difficulties , and the first perception that his marriage , if it were not to be a yoked loneliness , must be a state of effort to go on loving without too much care about being loved , he had once or twice tried a dose of opium . But he had no hereditary constitutional craving after such transient escapes from the hauntings of misery . He was strong , could drink a great deal of wine , but did not care about it ; and when the men round him were drinking spirits , he took sugar and water , having a contemptuous pity even for the earliest stages of excitement from drink . It was the same with gambling .
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